Thank you to everyone who has shown interest in where I have been and what I have been up to by simply clicking to read this post. I want to personally thank those of you who have been with me since I started blogging a few years ago and have patiently stood by me over the past few months while my social media pages went silent. I am sure most of you are wondering where I have been as I’ve received numerous messages asking everything from when my big comeback is going to be to if I am still alive. Well, here we are! I am back and ready to break the silence.
When I originally became a makeup artist and began beauty blogging in my early 20’s it was because of my passion for the art, and my love for inspiring others through my creations and tips I learned along the way. However, when I turned 30 everything changed and I felt a shift inside of me that was hard to even explain. It was almost as if the blinders were lifted and it became evident to me that there was something missing in the beauty industry. Everyone was talking about how to look good, but not many people were talking about how to feel good. There was such a disconnect and separation between the two even though they went hand in hand. I wanted to create a space where people could come to learn about the important balance between beauty and wellness, so that they could truly feel beautiful both inside and out.
My only problem was that I was in no position to do so. I myself fell victim to the overbearing demand to keep up with the increasing number of product launches that were taking place. It was almost as if I had to immediately pump out posts before the products I had just received or purchased were already deemed irrelevant and everyone was on to the next best thing. I was often overworking myself and running on empty. Near the end of 2019 the joy I originally had was slowly dying off as the burnout became real. While I was still practicing the things that helped to keep me grounded in moderation I was not doing it nearly as often as I would have liked to. I often found myself wishing I had more time. I knew that I couldn’t speak on a topic that I was struggling with myself. I had to truly embody it in order to help myself and others, so I decided to take a time out.
I made it my new years resolution that I was going to focus on myself no matter how many months it took before I felt balanced and ready to return. Many thoughts crossed my mind from losing touch with my online community of friends that I had made over the years, losing followers, and missing out on potential brand deals that I may never get the chance for again, but I knew I had to do it. I learned how to say no to others so that I could retreat in solitude. Other than seeing my boyfriend and immediate family I paused all social gatherings and meetings with friends. I spent a lot of time in solitude and looking inward and focusing on practices meant to nurture the body, mind, and soul.
For me this involved meal prepping to ensure that I ate clean every day, meditating multiple times a day, journaling first thing in the morning and before bed, daily yoga practice, broadening my horizons through educational books and podcasts, booking regular sauna, spa, and massage appointments, and getting out in nature as much as possible. In doing so I started to feel like myself again, but an even more whole and enlightened version. I had energy, was sleeping well, and was full of such a deep love and compassion for everyone and everything. It was this profound love for all living things including animals that also lead to my shift to veganism.
A month and a half into my journey I started receiving vivid messages through dreams and meditations telling me that it was time to resurface. I was being told not to delay as what I had to share would be needed soon. I was assured that I would be guided. The longer I held back the stronger and more frequent these messages became. A few weeks later the corona virus pandemic started to emerge in Canada. I could see the toll it was taking on everyone mentally, and I could feel the overwhelming energy of fear surrounding health and finances being projected out into the universe. I knew I was being asked to return to share what I had learned during my months of solitude, so that those who were forced into quarantine or isolation would have the tools to get through it and would have a new way of thinking that they could carry forward even afterwards as we navigate our new normal.
With that said, I am here to provide a loving space where we can all connect and grow together as we aspire towards oneness. My goal in doing so is to serve as a guiding light on a healing path to a more awakened and holistic state of being through balanced education on all things beauty inside and out. I hope that in sharing my divine intuitive messages, spiritual practices, and product knowledge in vegan beauty I am able to ignite a ripple effect in each of you to look and feel your best, so that you too can live a purposeful life full of bliss. I look forward to experiencing this transitional journey together! On that note I will leave you with one of my favourite quotes by Mother Teresa. “I alone cannot change the world, but I can cast a stone across the waters to create many ripples”. – Mother Teresa